Alive

So it's 6am…

No, I didn't wake up early… it's me. I stayed up all night. 

I just looked out the window from 5 until now and watched the sky slowly (yet quickly) change from night to day. It was beautiful. I saw a few cars, but not many and one or two early morning joggers. It was just so serene and tranquil. I've never felt so relaxed and alive at the same time. 

I feel like I can do anything now and succeed. I don't know why, but I do. 

I believe the correct thing to say is I'm at one with myself. 

So after all this, I've decided something.

I've decided that this year in school I'm going to be me. Not a version of me that other people want me to be, but just me.

I've always found myself changing to make others happy, but this year it's time to do things to make me happy. To do things I want to do. To live without regrets. Well… no promises about the regrets.

I have a really hard time following things through, but out of all the revelations I've had and the promises I've made to myself - I honest to god hope that I can keep this one. To be me. 

I truly want to be me because I feel like I will be a happier more comfortable and thus kinder person. 

Holiday

Okay, so I'm super excited because I am going to Hua Hin in Thailand. I'll post some travel tips etc. later, but this is just a quick little post letting you know what to expect. 

Expectations

Now, I'm not gonna apologise (again for not posting) simply because no one is reading this. But, I've decided to start blogging at least once a week because it just need to rant sometimes.

So, today, I'm gonna rant about expectations. 

Do you ever have an idea in your mind of what people's reactions will be to something you do and then it's completely different? Or even worse, they don't do anything? Has anyone else imagined what a school year or what a day would be like and it doesn't turn out like that? 

I do. All the time. 

I'm often disappointed by people because of what they do or even what they don't do. 

I've realised why I'm disappointed. My expectations were too high or even impossible. 

I face a daily dilemma. Should I have expectations or not? The argument for both sides is seemingly simple. 

There are two points: dissapointment and goals. 

If I don't continue to have expectations, disappointment is avoided. If I continue to have expectations, I will be disappointed. Or will I?

Most of the time I have expectations which are too high, but I also have low expectations. I have found myself, at times, surprised at how kind someone is or how exciting a movie is or how well I did on the test. 

This links in to the goal part of my debate with myself. Expectations give us goals. When we expect ourselves to do something or to reach something, that becomes our goal. Life without goals seems rather meaningless, doesn't it?

The biggest part of it all; is it possible? Is it possible to stop ourselves from expecting certain things? Or will we always do it, conciously or subconsciously? 

School

So we're three weeks now into the new school year and it's…different. 

Already we have had three tests and one on Tuesday. We have projects, tonnes of homework and I'm not gonna lie… it's stressful. 

It's kinda scary too because next year we have our IGCSEs and I have to memorise everything we do this year and next year. And then the next two years i do the IB and after that I'll go of to University. Okaaaay… that's scary…not gonna think about that anymore. 

To make things worse, my two best friends left to different countries. I still have one of my old best friends, but we don't have all the same classes. I also have a couple of good friends too. Its just not the same of having two best friends with you all the time. We used to be so close and they just left. And don't get me wrong, I know they are other people who are worse off and I'm not saying that people should feel bad for me. I don't want people to feel bad for me. I just need to rant. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is life could be better.

Anyway, I'll go now and try to update more. See you soon, lovelies

Hello... no one

So... I guess this isn't a very popular blog. I don't know how to make a popular anything. My twitter account isn't popular, my tumblr isn't... Hell, I'm not popular. I'm friends with 'popular' people, but I am not popular...

I don't really see the big deal in being popular. I mean being friends with 'popular' person I get to see most of her life. It doesn't seem great. There are guys in the year below and above who like her, she has a big house, she has tonnes of cool clothes and she is actually (contrary to what movies have told me) really nice, but she doesn't have many 'real' friends. 

Seeing other popular people and their friends no one seems to have any true friends. They aren't trustworthy. The moment popular person falls, they will immediately take their place. They won't stay friends with ex-popular person. They will just become new popular person. And the cycle continues.

This is all observation. I'm not insulting or blaming because I think that will all want/have wanted to be popular. If you haven't then you will. It's just human nature. I have wanted to be popular and sometimes I still want to be popular, but not many people seem to actually truly 'like' popular people.

Popular people are like for one main thing. Their popularity. They aren't generally like for their hilarity or charity. Because people like them for their popularity, the moment they aren't popular people leave them. If they like popular person for one thing and then that one thing is taken away. Well, why should they stay friends with popular person? They have no reason to. 

What makes things even more complicated is that popular person can't not be friends with their 'friends'. They need those friends to keep them popular. If they shun their 'friends' away, then their popularity will dwindle. You can't be popular and have no friends. It just doesn't work like that. 

Why don't the friends 'overthrow' the popular person? Simple, they give them power. It's like in school. Teachers only have power over us because we give them power. Same situation with world leaders. They have power because we give them power (in democratic countries we literally give them their power). 

This whole post wasn't meant to insult or belittle or be rude to anyone. It was simply observations. I just want people (or no one) to know and try to understand my views on popularity.

Ummmm....

I'm sorry (again)! I did tell you however that I wouldn't keep this up.

Anyway, I bought Taylor Swift's album "RED" yesterday and I'm addicted to it. It's amazing!!!! I am a major Swiftie (Taylor Swift fan), but it is really good. She wrote 80% of songs by herself and the other 20% she wrote with other peeps. So, BUY IT!!!!!!!!!!!

Before you read on, you should know this is mainly about iPhones and Apple stuff so if you hate Apple then don't read...

Anyway, I was thinking about getting an iPhone 5, I'm going to get one eventually and I just thought I might as well get one now. I will probably get a white one because apparently with the black model the back is painted and it can chip. I don't want it chipping and changing colour. Also, I've had a black and I wanna switch it up a bit. I updated my iPhone 4 to iOS 6 and I didn't really want to change it because mainly of the YouTube app loss. I mean, you can just download it from the app store, but the only problem is that I enjoy going onto other apps and listening to the song and you can't do that with the app. Although, that'll probably be changed soon. Also, apparently Apple Maps is bad. However, I was pleasantly surprised. Apple Maps ain't that bad. I'll have to get used to the YouTube situation.

So, with the iPhone 5 the only other problem (last one) is the new charger thing. I'll have to buy a adapter from the 30pin to Lightning. The only thing I'll have a problem with is my speakers. I'll have to put my adapter on the speakers and then the iPhone 5. Which might not be stable due and look good due to the height of the iPhone 5...

Other than that nothing is that bad. On the plus side, you get a bigger screen, which'll be better for videos, photos, scrolling etc. Also, it is a lot quicker with the A6 chip. Plus, there is 4G LTE the biggest thing for me. I download tonnes of stuff and watch tonnes of videos. So that will be extremely helpful for me. There is Siri, but that doesn't interest me that much because I live in Hong Kong so half of it I can't use. However, you can do more with it on the phone itself so I'll get more usage out of that rather than if I had the iPhone 4S.

One last problem. Cost. I'll buy it, but it depends on the package.

SORRY!!!!!!!!

Hi
I'm soooooo sorry I haven't posted, but I just got back form New Zealand! It was so much fun!!!!!!!!!!!

The time has gone by so quickly though! Too quickly. I've met up with two of my friends recently and I asked them if they wanted ANOTHER 9 weeks off and they said no. They would get bored. I wouldn't I mean I just wish we had more holidays because soon (in 2 days) we are going back to school. Now I know the first is half a day and it's simple, but I mean I'm kinda scared. I guess I'm just scared that I won't make any friends with the new kids. But It's weird because I know everyone else who'll be there. I mean like 6 people have left and the class dynamic will have COMPLETELY changed (All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another – Anatole France) and the class dynamic last year was so good we all had fun and laughed and no matter how much we complained it was the only year when I truly felt like we were a... a family. We would stick up for each other. All the teachers told us that the other class was better, but we always just said "We have personality" and they would just roll their eyes. We were constantly told the other class is more mature, the other class is quicker, the other class is quieter. We never got told that we were better. EVER!!! Do you know how... discouraging that is? Being constantly told you are worse? It just- I mean- I can't even begin to explain. But the thing is at first we felt bad and wanted to do better, but after a while we didn't care we got used to it. It was nothing new. And although it was horrible I do honestly think that when the teachers told us we were worse it made us closer. It made us unite. It made us a family. And I want that to happen again I guess. But we need certain people for that to happen. We need certain people to speak up. And they've gone. They've left. So it can't happen again.

It is going to take a lot to make a year that good again. I just know it's not going to be as good. And I really, really hope I'm wrong. I do! But I just don't think I am. We start school Tuesday. After that day I'll give you a preliminary thought and on Friday I'll be able to tell you for sure. Unless something majorly dramatic happens.

So that's all my creativity today! Comment and let me know what you think.

TTYL!!!! (Type to you later) HAHAHAHHA!!!!!! I'm hilarious!

Bye bye people!

Dear World, Stop Complaining! Sincerely, Me

WOW!!!!! I"M SO INTERNATIONAL!!!!!!!!!!

AGGAHAGAGHGHADFSDNVLJIEQRAFFBJKELR!!!!!!!!!!!! Look at how many views I've got. Ok well It's not a lot, but hey It's pretty good for me!

I've also got 87 pageviews!!!!!! I only have one follower though so follow me!! SERIOSULY FOLLOW ME!!!! Unless you do have a good reason for it. 

Rose Kennedy - “Birds sing after a storm; why shouldn’t people feel as free to delight in whatever sunlight remains to them?” 

People complain too much. I'm sick of it. We live in such a world where we want everything perfect. But the reality is NOTHING"S PERFECT!

It started when I was talking about movies and my friend asked me "Have you ever rated a movie ten out of ten?" and that got me thinking. I have never seen a movie where afterwards I thought that was ten out of ten. Where I thought everything was perfect. The plain truth is that there is no movie ten out of ten. Why? Because nothing is perfect.

Now most people would think "Oh! I'm gonna go watch a great movie!" or because the title of this post "I'm gonna be less picky!" But I didn't. I'm not saying I'm above complaining. And I'm not saying no one should complain. I'm not saying be a little less picky. I'm just saying accept that nothing is perfect and don't complain as much. Just try and look at it from both sides. 

Everyone wants to be perfect. And again I'm not saying I'm above this. I want to be perfect too!

But no one seems to accept the fact that no one is perfect. Everybody seems to think that certain people are perfect and they are just one of the people that aren't perfect. 

NO ONE IS PERFECT! 

Shakespeare - “Nothing is so common as the wish to be remarkable.”

HI!

Hey. I just wanted to say hello to Russia. Apparently Russians are fans of me. So Hi! and Thank you!

Hey!

Ok I know that on my last post I said that I would post everyday and I haven't. Soooooooooo, sorry (again)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok so I have an addiction...well...two...well...I prefer the word...well...it's summer ok I'm not bothered to think. I'm sorry okay!!!!!!!!!!! Well last post I said that summer was boring! And I take that back...well...kinda...it's boring, but you discover "addictions".
My first "addiction" is TWITTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, I was "addicted" before, but then I went to facebook, then twitter, then facebook again and now I'm back to twitter. Now most of you (me talking to no one again because nobody is reading this) know what twitter is so yeah. But if you don't it's like facebook except well. It's facebook. But everyone argues saying "No facebook's better" or "No twitter's better", but sorry to burst everyone's bubble they are the same!!!!!!

My second "addiction" is K-POP!!!!!!!!!!!! "I want nobody nobody, but you!" yeah I can't sing. Now talking o- well singing- well typing of the wonder girls (?) K-Pop is awesome!!!!!!!!!! Now not many people know or have heard of K-Pop or they have a stereo-typed idea of it. Well, to be honest I did to until two days ago. I bought MTV mainly because I realised I bash it a lot, but don't actually have it so since I'm in Hong Kong (WOO!!!! GO HONG KONG) I bought MTV ASIA and there was K-Pop!!!!!!

Now for those people that don't know:

K-Pop is a musical genre consisting of dance, electronic, electropop, hip hop and R&B music from South Korea. Now don't confuse it with J-Pop (K-Pop, but Japanese instead of Korean) or C-Pop (K-Pop, but Chinese instead of Korean). Now it is VEEEEEEERRRRRRRRYYYYYYY addictive. An author from Rolling Stones said or wrote or typed or thought or something "K-Pop is a mixture of trendy western music & high energy Japanese pop (J-Pop).

Now to start you of on you K-Pop adventure I'll give you some great songs. If you don't like a song then just click on anther one or choose another song by that group/singer. Just one group or singer in K-Pop is often very versatile. They might go for a rock-y feel in one song, an electronic-y feel on another and a pop-y feel on another song in just one album. Also the songs i write down are in no order.

Now the songs:

G.NA - 2HOT http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HjaFkaXsfq0
Now don't even ask me how to pronounce her name.

Shinee - Sherlock http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8kyG5tTZ1iE
Their style has actually created a fashion trend amongst students which the media dubbed the "SHINee Trend. (I don't see how)

Sistar - Alone http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XVIFSM1tEQ

LOVE their dresses!!!!!!

Ailee - Heaven http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9ro1KjkJMg

Ailee was actually on a talent show called "Singer and Trainee". I'm guessing it's like "The Voice".

Wonder Girls - Like Money http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=quE6Cq4Q2bs&list=UUhI-JZXdkUJa_eJpn7GE5lA&index=1&feature=plcp 

Finding out Wonder Girls have other songs is like finding out Carly Rae Jepson has other songs other than "Call Me Maybe". 

Girls Generation - The Boys http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YFbyh0wzTS0

There are nine of them. NINE! NINE! 9!

TTS - Twinkle http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JmM04_OgajU

Now some people say "Girls Generation sing this! Not TTS!", but TTS is a sub-unit. Three members of Girls Generation started TTS. So really it's called Girls Generation-TTS, but I call it TTS.

Big Bang - Tonight http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8d5QEWdHchk

Fans of Big Bang are known as VIPs. I like that. Most fandom names are all saying that the celebrity controls you. And you have no power, but they don't. I like that!

Brown Eyed Girls - Sixth Sense http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIqkDBsSJOw

Sixth Sense reached number 2 on the US K-Pop billboard.

MBLAQ - Mona Lisa http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SenkemTrZMQ

Now you maybe w- no you will be wondering "Why are they called MBLAQ?". Well MBLAQ is actually an acronym for Music Boys Live in Absolute Quality. Don't ask! I don't get it either.

U-Kiss - Neverland http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KH6s_xAv1o

The effects are soooooooooo awesome.

TVXQ - Why (Keep your head down) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djJb5iSL0Do

Awesome fire effects!

BEAST - Fiction http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3b6acp-a6QY

Beast's fanclub name is "B2uty", pronounced "Beauty"

Ok after hearing those or you just want to listen to different K-Pop artists. This is a link to a helpful slide show thing. http://www.slideshare.net/Kimmy4lsu/the-beginners-guide-to-kpop

Now this has been a long post so I hope it makes up for being a complete liar before.

OK so...bye? 

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok I know I just posted, but I just went on my stats and 62 VIEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On MY blog. MY blog. MINE!!!! So thank you random 62 people. Or one person who went on 62 times! THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Oh and I know 62 isn't a big number, but whatevs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Umm...so...sorry...and...uhhh...I'll try and post more stuff!

Ok. Well my first post did say that I would probably would give up and well as you can tell I did. BUT...BUT I am now posting I guess I'll try posting every day, but again NO PROMISES!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's summer and kinda boring. Everyone complains about school and I'm not saying that school is fun or anything, but when you're at school you can talk to people and although you have to learn you can also socialise. In summer, however, we tend to ignore this skill. I mean I LOVE SUMMER!!!!!!!! Like today I woke up at 8:30 and didn't get changed till 12... I mean you can't do that at shcool. Well you can, but you'd get yelled at and embarrassed, but ya could. Sooooooooooooooooooo............................. oh yeah yesterday I- wait no two days ago I got a new watch. I LOVE IT! Another thing about being away from school you forget the date. the fifth day of summer and I don't know the date. WOW!!!!!!! I'm an idiot!! When we go back to school we are gonna look and sound like idiots with VTLs (visible tan lines) (I just made that up so if you don't know don't worry and don't start using it cuz you will, like I just did, sound like an idiot) and weird handwriting cause we also tend to ignore this skill too. Don't you hate it how during Summer you don't know what to do, and you just do useless and weird stuff, but when it's school you have a list of tonnes of things that you will do in summer and like the day before school at the end of summer you hate yourself for wasting summer.

Now like I said before I'll say random things sooo yeah still expect those, but I'm gonna add something. This blog has kinda become a rant page so I will just rant a lot.

Let everyone know about this blog. If you like it, then let people you like know about it. If you hate it, then let people you hate know about it. Tell your friends, family, dog, cat, fish, hamster, food, pillow everyone and everything you know. And continuously refresh the page. If you're bored then just come back to this page. Give me views please. Oh and if you have any thing you wanna rant about then comment on a post and tell me what you want me to rant about and I will. Oh and I'll credit you.

I don't know why I'm talking to "you" nobody is reading this. Oh well I just sound like an idiot talking to myself. Well typing, but then anyone typing is doing that, but you know what I mean.

Ok....soooo....uh.....bye?

Christmas/School

Ok so. It is almost Christmas and I am so excited, but (there is always a but) This week of school I HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean we have a History test tomorrow. Seriously. School is pretty easy, but the teachers aren't going any slower. They are going faster if that makes sense. I am pretty sure we have even more homework. I mean at primary they aren't working it is like dot-dot and cross-words. I wanna go to primary. Do the teachers think we don't have a hint of a social life? And then you have to stay nice to people and stay friends!!!!!!! I don't know. I just want life to stop for 1 day. I would just want to have one day to have fun and go crazy and then go back so I haven't wasted time. I would remember everything and I could choose what others remember!!!!!!!!!!

Random Things

I have a lot of random things on my mind sometimes. I don't know if that is just me or if that is everyone. There are a lot of things that happen to me that I don't know if it is just me of if it happens to everyone. I hope it happens to everyone, but you can never be too sure. Also not many things happen to everyone because not everyone is the same. Also I ramble on all the time. I don't even stay on topic. Oh...... I just realised that is what I have been doing now. 

Just letting you know (probably no one is reading this so I don't know why I am typing this. Anyway.....) that I will type the weirdest things on this blog. It will probably NEVER make sense!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is all I have to say for now.

BTW

BTW
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This Blog

Hi 
As I know from thousands of English classes I must use the "5  W's" - Who, What, Where, Why, When.
So here I go.
Who?
I am writing it and you are reading it.
What?
A blog.
Where?
Anywhere.
When?
Anytime.
Why?
Because I want a place to write about the side of life that no one ever talks about or thinks about. I want a place to write about the side of life where movies never go. I want a place to write about the REAL life, where not everything ends in a Happy Ending. I want a place to write random things at random times and say random quotes. I want a place to say random funny things. And this is my place.


I'll try to write often, but my other blog was a fail and all of my diaries. So no promises.