No, I didn't wake up early… it's me. I stayed up all night.
I just looked out the window from 5 until now and watched the sky slowly (yet quickly) change from night to day. It was beautiful. I saw a few cars, but not many and one or two early morning joggers. It was just so serene and tranquil. I've never felt so relaxed and alive at the same time.
I feel like I can do anything now and succeed. I don't know why, but I do.
I believe the correct thing to say is I'm at one with myself.
So after all this, I've decided something.
I've decided that this year in school I'm going to be me. Not a version of me that other people want me to be, but just me.
I've always found myself changing to make others happy, but this year it's time to do things to make me happy. To do things I want to do. To live without regrets. Well… no promises about the regrets.
I have a really hard time following things through, but out of all the revelations I've had and the promises I've made to myself - I honest to god hope that I can keep this one. To be me.
I truly want to be me because I feel like I will be a happier more comfortable and thus kinder person.